Is there an instruction manual anywhere??

Wow...I am so emotionally/mentally drained.  Over the last few weeks I feel as if I have been pulled in hundreds of different directions with too many things on my mind-and not enough time in a day.  I mentioned in my last post about a really tough decision my husband and I needed to make and the ups and downs of dealing with making the decision has really taken its toll on me.  Still no definitive answer...not sure if there is one.  Here both answers seem to be the wrong one!  I am not sure how to know which choice is right.  Just writing about it makes me tired...it seems the most important thing to remember is that I need to take care of my family and do what is best for all of us.  I need to take care of US first and foremost.   My biggest problem is that I want to try and save the world...but I can't and will fall short of that as there is only one true SAVIOR.  As my grandma told me when I asked her how I know which answer is right-she said we need to pray about it, make our decision, move on knowing what we decided was best and have no regrets. No shoulda, coulda, wouldas...now if only I could take that advice.  Those words are easier said than done.  Would anyone like to make the decision for me?  It would be so nice for someone to say "Brynn this is what you should do..." and "this is how it will turn out..."and I could know the outcome and have peace.  I know there are no guarantees in life but wouldn't things be so much easier if there were?  Can I get an instruction manual over here to give me a step by step?  Or maybe cliff notes to the life of Brynn Miller that can sum up everything in my life?  Wouldn't that be nice!  I will just continue to pray, trust that God will take care of everyone and everything and hope the decision gets easier.  The one thing that has helped lately has been that the weather here has been unseasonably warm and it has taken my mind off of these things for a bit to focus on the beauty and newness Spring brings.  I am such a warm weather person and this time of year brings such happiness!  I love seeing the budding trees and smelling the first blossoms!  How beautiful creation is!

The Battle within

My husband and I have a HUGE decision to make that will change our lives and we are so torn as to how we want to go.  The prayer of guidance seems to be all that is on our minds right now!  The thing I struggle with the most is deciphering the difference between what my head is telling me to do and what my heart/God is telling me to do.  How can I tell the difference?  I think my selfishness overpowers the part of me that has reason.  There are so very many selfish/unselfish reasons to continue on as we currently are and there are so many very unselfish/selfish reasons to embark down the new path.  I only want what is best for my family and hope that in all this that is what comes out of it.  My prayer today and this week is for peace to know that the decision that we make is the right one and for wisdom to make the right choice.  I wish I could dive into details here but for many reasons I can't share the situation on the worldwide web.  If curiosity gets the best of you I would be happy to share with you offline!  I could use the ears.  Keep us in your thoughts and prayers this week!  We could definitely use them!